Being a child of the fairy godmother and Father Christmas ....

My sisters and I often joke about my parents being to giving especially when they don't have much to give.... My dad is an awesome Christian man with deep values... He would go bankrupt to help out his fellow man. His heart is so big always helping whether it's a mortgage, car note, tuition, bills etc... He will make sure that person is taken care of immediately no questions asked... My mom hasn't worked in over 23 years but she will find money or gifts somewhere to help out a deserving family... So that's where I come in .. I have unfortunately inherited the genes of my parents... I would give my last and sometimes my dad's Amex card to a person who I deem needs it... Usually a man going through a rough patch etc... I have paid bills, rent, child support , bonds, gas, food, etc... For again usually a man who I think loves me... In return I may see an influx of calls but after the well runs dry or I.e. A holiday I never see the return... I do feel used at times and my bff's shake their heads because I'm in a repetitive circle of endless giving... I want to stop but my heart can't help it... I want up give everything I possibly can but in the end my happiness only last a little while because I once again feel empty. Money doesn't buy happiness but yet I would swipe my debit card in a second if a man I care about asks me too.... Right now I'm trying to focus on my endeavors or radio and tv but I sometimes find my singleness as a blunder I can't seem to overcome... I don't want to be that independent woman who is successful and not sharing it with a close companion ... I want to trust again , love someone again and not be loved got my wallet... Us that hard to find nowadays?????

Niambi IngramComment